Sometimes when you fail, you don't

I rode the struggle bus hard this morning on my run, or at least I feel like I did. Map My Run says otherwise. Its funny how it seems when I feel like I'm at my worst, my numbers seem to be better. My speed increased today versus the past couple days. Maybe I pushed myself harder and I just feel like it was harder (I suppose that's how this whole fitness thing works). I did change up my music. I guess a little Mamma Mia did the trick, thanks ABBA!

3 weeks into the Couch to 5K program. I'm still pretty pumped. However I'm more proud of the inspiration I have given to my friends and co-workers. My boss and another friend at work have both started the C25K and we've been more inspired to talk to our patients about health and fitness goals over the past couple weeks. A little accountability goes a long way. This is the first time I've really felt like I can't quit because I will not only disappoint myself, I'll disappoint so many other people. I'm still terrified of the prospect of running a half marathon in 25 weeks. Eek!

Day 1 Week 1

Yesterday I resigned from a job I have had and loved for a long time. Had loved being the operative word. Sometimes even a little push from a higher force is all it takes to jump headlong into an empty pool. Not sure yet if I will crash and burn, but we'll see. I have not had to "look" for a job in a long time, nor have I really had to think about what I wanted to do. The whole thought of embarking on a new chapter in my life is a bit scary, but its odd really, I'm not as worried as I thought I'd be. I know it seems a bit cliche really, but for the first time in a long time I am relying truly on a higher power to guide my way, or as a lot of people I know would say, I have finally "let go and let God". I am putting my faith in God and hoping that the path I am on will lead me in the right direction.
For the past few days I have been discussing, quite frankly mostly to myself, but also to a few friends and family members, about things I could do with my life. Those things, some realistic, some not, and some potentially somewhere in between are these:
1. re-open the Curves franchise across the street (moderately acheiveable)
2. go back to school (not sure)
3. sell my organs (not realistic, just threw that out there)
4. begin applying for any and all retail jobs I can find (frankly my last resort. I want out.)
5. join the circus (again, these are just ideas)
6. write a book (actually, kinda one I'm thinking I want to do, just not sure how realistic)
7. restart my massage practise (logical interim decision)
Thats the list so far, small and limited, but my life is a work in progress. Which also correlates to the to do list I have for my life that I started before I left my job. The biggest of those was to lose weight and get healthier. That was how the idea to potentially write a book and my mom's suggestion of starting a blog came to be. So I will start here and see how my writing skill progress.....